I truly believe I will look back on this one day and know the emotional roller coaster I’ve willingly boarded and strapped myself to was the best thing for me.
Because this is about me becoming selfish enough to tear myself wide open so I can hear my heart beating, my lungs fill with air, feel life pulse through me like tomorrow is a distant planet. I want to untangle the tethers and dance again. Wave a white flag to my damaged heart and believe that falling doesn’t always mean bruises.
But, I’m no longer willing to bend for anyone. It’s making it harder to breathe by the minute and I need to breathe this in like gunpowder through the barrel of a gun.
Go ahead and fire.